Monday, 7 December 2015

#17 Eleanor and Park.

Hello World, 

Another book review from another book that I would never really would read. 

I had once read another Rainbow Rowell, Fangirl. Oh, boy I enjoyed, but also really hated that book. I was so envious of the characters and their relationship. I was also envious of these two characters relationship in Eleanor and Park.

Eleanor and Park are two characters who fall for each other during their school year. Their first encounter was on a school bus, it slowly built from a friendship to something more than a friendship. Eleanor comes from a home with an abusive step-dad and a mum to blind to see. Park comes from a home with an controlling dad and but a completely loving household. The months progress and something happens to Eleanor home that causes her to leave town. This becomes the end of Eleanor and Park.

Rainbow Rowel captures the whole young first love in sweet detail. If anyone remembers their first love and how you felt, I can feel assured that you felt and related to the characters in the book. Doing something so little to make the other feel accepted and happy. 

This book is such a light hearted read and captures you on the first page. 

Claire.

Sunday, 29 November 2015

#Book Review 15 Winter Ghost.

Hello World.


It has become that time of year where I really enjoy the cold. Most importantly curling up and sitting with a book that is based around winter. 
Winter Ghost by Kate Mosse seemed right up my street. A book about snow and ghosts, I'm there. 

So Winter Ghost, is about a man who has lost someone very dear to him. He travels through the higher levels of France and comes across a remote town there. This is where he meets a woman during a holiday feast, they spend the whole night talking lost and grieving. When he wakes up she is gone and has no idea where she could be. Here comes a small adventure, hiking into mountains, into a cave where he find the young woman and the history behind it all.

If many of you guys was into Ghost Whisperer, then this is a book for you. I personally love a good little spirit story, where they send you messages in hope you will find out about their history and finding out what truly happened to them. It's the mystery inside the book that kept me turning every page. 

So a little review for you people this evening, whilst I hide in my house from the big winds in Britain.
Keep it safe world.

Claire

Monday, 23 November 2015

#BookReview 14 All The Bright Places.

Hello World,

I found out about this book through the Vlogger/Blogger Zoella. It was a book she had read and recommended through a favourite video. I watched the video and thought it sounded like a good book that would be easy to read and not overly enjoy. 


Oh boy, was I wrong..

All the bright places is about two characters who meet in an unlikely place and both develop a friendship through a geography project. Theodore (kudos to the name btw) has always shown an interest to killing himself and plans many ways to kill himself. Violet, believed she had it all. Popularity, friendships, boyfriend and an amazing sister. Until one day she loses her sister and she loses herself to grief. They meet on top of a bell tower and there begins the unlikely friendship between the two characters.


Reason why I loved this book. One: it really was an easy read. Two: it really was extremely gripping, I was immediately absorbed into this book. Drifting away into the world of the two characters. I was gripped into their lives and felt bonded with them. Yes, I did get emotionally attached to the characters like I always do when I read a book or watch a film. So it is not surprising that in the end I was drawn to tears. 

It's very rare to read a book that is very easy to read and completely captures your whole attention. I really did struggle to put it down. I was also woken up, after reading that book I felt inspired to get out there live a little more with a few more adventures and to keep trying to be more happy.

NB: I am currently feeling as I haven't done much from that new inspiration to live a happier life and to work. But then again, it only has been a couple of months since reading the book and these things take time and hard work. Which I am working on. 

Claire.

Wednesday, 4 November 2015

Believing.

Hello World,

Letter to October, started of amazing but unfortunately I lost touch. 


You can go far,
If you believe in yourself
To fly

I can try and call this a small come back into the writing world and into the Blogging World.
It's been a couple of weeks, that I wish I never had. I have always been wanting to write and been wanting to write on this page. Sadly though, emotions has gotten into the way. I suppose you can say, negativity has invaded my mind and has decided that everything and everyone is evil. I'm not even trying to put all the blame on me, I have been surrounded by negative people and it is hard to live with your life when they are constantly putting you down. It had me believing, that I am not even worth the time. 

So, I have been trying to make myself remember the positives. Turning on the light and start believing in myself to work hard at the dreams I want to achieve. #goodluck


Claire.

Tuesday, 13 October 2015

Hello October #4

Hi October,

Your getting colder October. Recently we have been celebrating life. Life of my youngest sibling. We are all in our twenties now, my parents are able to go off and do their own thing, whilst we find out who we are. 

Celebrating wasn't exactly something I wanted to do. I wanted to hide. I did. After celebrating a birthday, whilst everyone else did their own thing. I stayed in the four walls, reading and sleeping. I was just a bit unwell October, that being on my own and re build myself, ready for another set of days of living.

We are all thankful for the lives we have been given, we all try and make the most of it. Happiness and healthiness, sometimes need to recharge and it is those bad days where it may seem all is at lost. It isn't, we're just recharging for a bigger and brighter days. 

Claire.

Sunday, 11 October 2015

How to Build A Girl #Review13

Hello World,


I'm currently laying in my bed feeling like poo. So I'm not actually sure how well this post will sound. My brain is going really fast with everything I want to write down and I'm still feeling a bit feverish. Lets see what I have got.

During last week I have managed to finish How To Build A Girl by Caitlin Moran, just had to Google to check if I spelt the name correctly, as I am too lazy to go and grab the book downstairs. It's probably not a good start to a review, but I was really glad to have finished that book. I did struggle with it towards the end and by the time I finished it I was like "thank god for that!" 
This is not because I thought it was a terrible book. I actually enjoyed it and I wanted to finish it, because I wanted to know how the book ended. I tend to be the same to books I don't even like, I still have to waste my time and read them because I need to know how it will end. (That is something I actually need to stop doing, because it angers me).

How To Build A Girl, is about a young teenager called Johanna Morrigan, or something. She is an overweight teenager who has lived through embarrassing moments and who parents are both out of work and have problems of their own.. So, Johanna a girl in Wolverhampton in the nineties, wanting to be someone else, who does not want to be herself. Decides she can do either one of the two options, kill herself or build a new person. 

The book includes all these embarrassing scene with alcohol, sex and many musicians. Some are supposed to be laugh out loud and some just make you cringe. It really depends on your type of humour. 
When I first started this book, I felt like I could relate my teenager self to this character. I to was a fat awkward teenager. Like Johanna, I developed this type of woman inside my head that I would like to be and started working towards her. A long the way, she has changed and altered slightly to suit myself more.
However, as I continued to read this book, I started to dislike Johanna. I just wanted to shout at the book, "Why are you doing that?!" "Don't do it, if you don't want to." She was starting to make me feel angry and just, Johanna was just becoming this person that I personally would have found too loud and too obnoxious. 

I feel as if Moran had captured the struggles of girls during this difficult time. Confused and lost, only doing something they don't particularly want to do because it would only mean others will like them better. She captured the struggles of poverty during that time and even now for most teenagers. Moran has created a book that I think most people who believe in feminism should read.

To be honest, there is a big part missing from this post and it is hear in my head, but it is too jumbled up to be expressed into words. I might try and fix that later. 

Claire.

Thursday, 8 October 2015

Hello October

Hello October, 

October, I sometimes like to think I am an introvert. I prefer to hide in the four walls and read until my heart is content. 
However October, it has become increasingly difficult to find the book so good it has me escaping the reality altogether. 
I admire your month. But reality is hard to live in. Work, exercise and sleep. A little something is needed to fill that hole and create that little happiness. Books is one and little mini adventures is another. 

Claire. 

Tuesday, 6 October 2015

Hello October #2

Hello October,

I woke up to the sounds of you this morning. The rain was pelting against my window in the early hours of the morning, it was loud enough to make me stir. That was OK though October, because it made me smile today and I was warm in my bed.
A lot of people can take these things for granted October, but this morning that living of a warm bed, I was thankful October. Truly thankful October.

Today, was a dreary day for everyone. There was way too many downward smiles. They struggle October, for when it rains, they rain inside too October. October it is nothing against you, it's just many crave the sunshine to black skies, it reminds them of inner battles or darker times. It's hard to find the light in dark thick clouds. You know that, right October?
I know, because I rain inside too. Sometimes the rain just never ends. The sunshine comes through. Like today October, although it was raining. There was sunshine inside October.

I heard you this morning October and although today was difficult for others, I still held my smile.

Claire.

Monday, 5 October 2015

Hello October. #1

Hello October,

It has been five days since you have joined us and yet like the star you are, you made yourself known with a majestic fog each morning.
It's strange to watch the world crave you. Especially in the Northern Hemisphere. It is even more strange to see you come a long and change everything around you. Me personally, I struggle with change and it takes me a while to adjust to the new ways. When you come around October, I admire the change, just like April. 
Today, October I took in the full effect of what you bring to us. Your still early in your days October, but I can see the slight changes you are bringing. Within the green there are yellow, with hints of orange and red. Walking in the beauty of leaves, time October, it seemed to have slowed right down. The leaves are slowly changing around me and time has slowed down with them.
We know October, that time can speed up when we least expect it. In this world, you have watched us each year demanding for more time in the day, becoming increasingly stressed with ourselves for not getting those job done and not doing things for ourselves. 
That why October, when time slowed down for me today. I slowed down my pace and smiled at the slowly changing leaves. 
Thank you October. 

Claire



Tuesday, 29 September 2015

It's the Middle of nowhere.

Hello World,

We all dream of a place, a place very few sounds. Except for the ones we hold dear to us. The sound of the wind rustling through the leaves, the sound of birds chirping in the morning sun. The sound of a car driving by or even the sound of a book page being turned. 
We dream of a place, of a sight that we hold dear to us. A beach with blue skies and sunshine. A woodland, with all the furry animals, a large field. 

Have we ever dreamed of a time, where time just stops and we are all in our element of relaxed and calmness. 

Claire.

Monday, 21 September 2015

Autumn/Winter Wishlist

Hello World,



Today is the Pagan holiday, Mabon. It is also known as the Autumn Equinox. I have always loved the Autumn and Winter months. Hot drinks, cosy nights, colder weather, those crisp morning and of course the holidays. 
In this post, I want to share with you my goals and wishlist of things I want to do this Autumn. 

Rock the scarf:

 I have a pretty extensive scarf collection. Last year however, I stuck to the same old scarves, so this year I am going to be challenging myself to wear as many different scarves. These were the ones I particular enjoyed wearing last year.

Pick a Pumpkin: Halloween is one of my favourite time of the year and yes, I love to carve my own pumpkin. This year I want to go to a pumpkin patch and pick my own pumpkin to carve! I actually thought this was something we couldn't do in England. So I looked it on Google maps and found a couple close to me!

Celebrate Halloween: The past couple of years, Halloween has been on a working night and I haven't put as much of an effort into it, that I would have liked. This year however, I am going to celebrate it. I'm going to put some effort into whatever I decide to go this year!

Read the perfect Autumn/Winter book:
One year I read The Snow Child and last year I read Practical Magic, both books was perfect for the Autumn and Winter. So this year I would like to at least squeeze as many books into my time of Autumn and Winter.


Run: I love running, but I struggle to make the time to do it. I would of course love to attempt to pick it up and work towards it during the colder months. 
Build and bake a gingerbread house: I want to work and build on my baking skills and create a gingerbread house this winter! 

Enjoy Christmas: I enjoy Christmas shopping and I enjoy shopping for people, for presents. I want to make an effort and build on that shopping enjoyment to fill my holiday with joy. 

I'll let you know how I work out with Blog post.

Claire

Thursday, 17 September 2015

Habits,

Hello World!

We all have habits. And it is always the bad ones we concentrate on. That is generally because those are the habits we are forever trying to get rid off or alternate. I for one have been concentrating on the bad habits and have been beating myself up over it. I'm not going to go into detail about the recent habits I have picked up about myself, because I want to concentrate on the positives.

Last week was possibly the worst week for me, everything that has been building up had finally caught up with me and made me in the most foulest of moods. Particularly my habits. Over the course of year, new habits had grown and became quite controlling of me and I particularly hated myself for becoming addicted to the habits. 
The worst of the habit was procrastinating; whenever I needed to do something, or I had free time to do a something productive like a hobby. I would procrastinate with something else.
I found this way of living so unhealthy and it made me feel like I had no control of my life. Recently I found myself procrastinating from actually reading a book!
I LOVE reading and when I found had time to myself and I thought, "I have time read." You would actually find me doing something completely different. I was procrastinating from doing something I would enjoy!? WTF, Right?

This week, I have decided reclaim some more control in my life. I wish I could tell you some things about how to kick the habit, but I am still learning all about it myself. 
I have read somewhere that it can take up to six weeks to break a habit you are trying to break. 
So if you are like me, who is desperate to break a habit. Persevere! Be consistent with yourself, but most importantly don't beat yourself up when  you have a set back.
I've found that the worst time for me on habits is when I create a too big of a list for myself. So I have decided to shorten the list and set myself doable goals. Such as; going to the gym after work, read only so amount of pages, blog about something extremely passionate and do your research!

Mentality; You need to remember that you are worth something. A lot of the habits I hated, came by was when I felt worthless or nothing. It's hard and you can't be happy all time! Sometimes telling yourself to smile or that you are worthy of a life can be extremely hard. So when I found myself in that mode, I want to try something new, I want to start meditating or sitting down and doing some colouring when I feel my mind is racing with self hatred. Something to numb the mind and reboot itself really. You can't control yourself, when you don't have the mind for it.

Feel free to leave any advice about how you broke a bad habit. I would love to hear about them.


Claire.

Tuesday, 15 September 2015

Office Girl Review #12

Hello World!

So, recently I finished another book. This book was completely different to what I normally read. It was a romance, a romance between a male and a woman in the 90's, living in a city and a couple of Artists: Office Girl.

It was a spur of the moment when I picked this book up in the shop because, I am not a romance genre reader. I would like to be, I really would like to read a nice romantic and just be in love with the novel. It's hard to read a romance book, when you are the least romantic person in the world. Strike that, I pretty sure there is someone out there who could be the least romantic person. But the whole idea of flowers on the doorstep and chocolates really doesn't appeal to me.  
Office Girl however is quite the least romantic romance novels ever. Which when I first read the back, I thought "yes, this book could actually be ideal for me," and it was at the beginning.

Office girl is about a 23 year old woman Odile, who has moved to the city to attend an art school. Which you only know in the book because, the author Joe Memo mentions she is an art school drop out. The way Odile pays her rent is by working in an office. Which is where she meets Jack.
Jack is an art school graduate, who also suffers from mild depression and is also going through his first divorce at the ripe age of 25. He begins to work in an office and meet Odile. Together they build a friendship, over travelling the city and doing crazy artistic stunts. There the romance blossoms. Which doesn't last long, during their time together, they both have done some pretty good soul searching and Odile leaves him to live her life somewhere else. To keep moving onwards.


My verdict? I liked this book. Two common known hipsters who both attended art school and fall in love? What is not to like? It was a book, that seemed to have been written just for me. It was creative and sarcastic, the writing and the way the author had developed the characters. The story line however was a bit of a drag and I did feel that the ending was in some ways rushed?

Claire.

Monday, 7 September 2015

Dismaland!

Hello World,

If you have been living under a rock the past few weeks, you will not have heard that the great Banksy and many other artist worked together and created a bemusement park in Weston Super-Mare. In one of the old abandon swimming pool beside the sea-front holds the bemusement park, known as Dismaland.

 When you enter, you are made to go through a "fake" security system, where the staff will inspect and check you, to ensure you are holding no criminal objects and ensure you do strange things before you can enter the bemusement park. Be warned, smiling is not admitted and heavens forbid for you to laugh. This security kid told me to take my hat off, whereas my sister who I waited for quite awhile was just told to turn her hat around!?

 Everything you see in the park is suppose to look dismal and generally depressing. To me the art I find of Banksy and the other artist are portraying the truth, in a more bold and simple ways. What you see here, is what is actually happening.

 The Artist has taken the news stories and created their own scene of it, through amusements that we all enjoyed as a child. An actual caraosel that you can ride, with a butcher holding boxes saying lasenge. As you may have remembered back earlier in the year when horse meat has been founded in certain meals.
Boats you can control that are of immigrants trying to get into the UK. Generally because the outside people think this country is their best choice. Which it maybe, as we can provide them homes and medicines.



 How many feel hurt and excluded because they are not of wealth. This man has made the poor poorer and the working class, having to work ten times as hard to either keep their jobs or to even pay for bills are are increasingly on the rise. 








Sometimes it can be pretty dark. I have shown this picture around and a lot of people have been particularly disturbed by this one. I suppose many people have different interpretations of how this can be represented. 
Me personally, it reminded me of a princess trying to get away from paparazzi and ended up in a car crash.
It also seems like a reminder that dreams don't come true after one night off from slaving away. You have to work towards them. 



The staff are paid to look miserable and sad. They are willing to take photos with you, as long as you don't smile. Many will tell you that the art work you see are rubbish and they have each done amazing at holding on to character. 








So don't smile and don't laugh. I can still tell you this, if you ever get inside Dismaland you will not regret it. The boldness and the smartness of these artist and truly eye openers. You only have a couple of weeks left.

Claire

My life in Festival.

Hello World, 

I cannot believe that this time last week I would have been on route back home from Reading Festival. It has been a whole year since I last went to a Festival and about three years since I last went to Reading. 
I love festivals, I love seeing bands play live in an open environment. See, I don't like going to concerts because, I hate the big arenas and so many people being crowded into one place. I don't mind smaller gigs, but festivals I love. A friend and I can just hang out to the side, where we are close enough to see the bands live, but not so crowded where we are squashed. 

I would have loved to say that this year Festival was so much better than the last one I went to, and in so many ways it was loads better than the last one. For instance the toilets was a huge improvement this year and the security surrounding the bars had improved so much, that I didn't see a lot of teens passed out before the best acts came on. However, as it is suppose to be called the Greatest Rock Festival in England, there wasn't a lot of Rock bands. 
Being two people who love the genre of Rock music, we found ourselves at one point just wondering aimlessly as we literally couldn't stand the drum and base that most DJ's was playing. I know I am asking too much, and people prefer those type of music nowadays to people playing actual instruments. And how Festival now have to cater for every persons, and what is most popular to bring in the money. I just couldn't help to have felt bored at some times. I did bring a book with me, so I wasn't that bored. So if you readers did go to Reading and saw a girl sat in NME tent most of the time at the back reading, it was probably me. 
I will say that Metallica killed it on Saturday night and I have listened to some new bands which I immediately enjoyed. 
A few of them being Wolf Alice, Spector, Circa Waves and Kendrick Lamar. I recently brought Wolf Alice CD. 






Claire.

Monday, 24 August 2015

The Twenty something and have become to comfortable.

Hello World,

There are a few things I like about myself: 
My Mind,
Being Creative, 
My legs,

My list could possibly go on.

And like every woman, there are a few things I hate about myself.
My Stomach,

My Mind.

This Mind can be my best friend, it can come up with great ideas, plans and many things I wish I could write down, draw or even do. 
Then this Mind of mine can be my worst enemy. It's very clever and can turn all my thoughts into self doubt, self loathing and anything. The worst thing about my Mind is how it likes routine. I can easily become fearful over anything, especially any ideas I have about where I want to go and who I would like to work towards. 
Recently I have found myself being very angry at myself because I am preventing myself from doing some ideas I have due to fear and fear of failing. I have become once again to comfortable in a routine, that I don't like and my mind doesn't like. It brings my mind in a circle of self loathing, to blaming and then self loathing. Until I have no energy in living again.

So, within in this post tonight. I kind of want to remind myself or some activity and mental thinking, that could help me regain my thinking track. 

  1. When in fear about an important decision, take a deep breath. Answer with I would like to think about it, go for a run. Running actually helps me think more clearly.
  2. When in stress: take out that colouring book. It works you know it does. Clear your mind. Try and take up meditating. 
  3. When an idea pops up and your head is screaming failure: Write it down. 
  4. Feel the urge to procrastinate: Stop yourself, from whatever you are trying to hide from and procrastinate from, do it in little bits and then do something like read a few pages. If it is an idea, write it in notes. 
  5. It is no one fault and it could possibly not be your fault. 
  6. Regain control through babysteps, remember the hardest part is the beginning. 
Take up yoga?! 

Rose.

Sunday, 23 August 2015

Review #9, #10 #11

Hello World,

I am ashamed, that it has been a long time since I have added a book review. I have read quite a few books, since my last book review post. 
Tonight, I am going to give you three book reviews, that I think are worth mentioning. Each one of these three books have different meanings to me and why I completely enjoyed them.

#9 The Castle by Franz Kafka:
I'm honestly surprised that I have not done a review straight after reading this! I read this book pretty much as soon as I came back from Prague. The truth is; I actually owned this book before I went to Prague. I once met someone who was obsessed with Kafka and his sense of writing, that that said person drilled into me to read some of his works. Hence why I had the book before I even knew Kafka lived in Prague during his lifetime. Being in the museum had just inspired me to read this book, and read it I did. I found I didn't quite understand anything that was being said, I also found I had to shut my brain off and just the words flow through me, for it to even make sense and it did. 
The reason why I would recommend this story is; Kafka never finished this book and for some reason it didn't bothered me but made me feel ok, this is it. I also found it really interesting how the main character just never gives up.

#10 The Architect Apprentice by Elif Shafak:
During my craving of needing to be in my happy place, which is a book shop. One of the salesman came up to me and recommended this book. After reading the back, I kind of felt compelled to read it. I really enjoyed Shafak writing that I couldn't put the book down. Shafak writes about Istanbul in the early ages, a boy who looks after a grand white elephant and becomes an apprentice to someone who is possibly the most kindest person on earth. 
There was a quote in this book, that will always stay with me and I once posted it on twitter. It goes;
"Nothing ruins the human soul more than hidden resentment." Elif Shafak: the architect apprentice.
I found this book was filled with quotes about life and being kind and working hard, that I was inspired and wanted to mould some of this writing to my way of living.

#11 If I stay by Gayle Forman:
This is one of those books where I watched the film first. 
I can get really emotional to films and books. I still cry to reading Severus Snape death and this book just had me filled with tears. How someone can watch her whole life break down and crash before her, but still makes the hardest choice of life and death is beyond me. Even when it seems as if everyone was ready to let go. The fact that she doesn't is amazing and I found myself loving this character so much more.

Rose.

Wednesday, 12 August 2015

Outfit!

Hello World,

This is a little outfit of the night. A friend of mine, which we will call Peachy, went out for a meal at an amazing Italian restaurant. 

 The Floral skirt came from New Look and it was about £14.99. 
The shirt had a transparent look and it belonged to someone else. It was two sizes two big, but good enough to turn in.


The shoes are the vintage style, with a killer heel. I would know, my feet are still paying for the price. 




Rose.

Thursday, 6 August 2015

Let's think...

Hello World,

Just a friendly quote and reminder to myself.


Don't be someone's Princess, 
When you can be a Queen, 
Who just fallen in love.



Rose.

Monday, 3 August 2015

July favourites!

Hello World!

A favourite post! I didn't do one last month, because I was feeling lazy. So the products that I have been loving is a combination of July and June!



Let's start with beauty; you may actually remember the natural glow palette from a previous post. I'm still currently in love with it and it is my go to eye shadow palette when doing my every day make-up. 
Bourjois bronzer and highlighter is something new. Highlighting is a new thing for me and I have been experimenting loads. I particularly like to highlight my nose and my cheekbones. 
I've recently taken to eye cream and this Simple eye cream has been amazing, my under eyes haven't looked dark for a bit and I enjoy at how easy it is to use. 
Witch blemish stick is a recent buy, because lately my skin has been having real bad break-outs, I have resorted to using this instead of toothpaste. This blemish stick is so much more kinder to my skin and doesn't dry out the spots. It works just effective as toothpaste had, but a much more kinder way. 



So, for a while I have been using my sister incense sticks whilst chilling. When I used up all my sisters, I knew I had to buy some of my own and restock hers. Like many other people out there, I am a huge fan of scented candles, I enjoy relaxing to the open flame and the smell of candles. Incense however are more stronger in scent and a lot more calming. Some people find the scent quite overpowering, whereas I enjoy the smell and I always feel elsewhere when I use one.
I am not a jewellery person. However when I found this little gem in Accessorise, I fell in love and I have been wearing it ever since. It is just a simple silver leaf. Plain and simple, something that is still quite defining. 


It's been a huge thing recently for adults to do some down time and relax to a few colouring books, kind of like doing wordsearch or sodoku, but without the brain power. Well, it involves a lot of concentration to actually make sure you stay in the lines! Believe me, in this colouring book, they are very close. I particularly like this book because it reminds me of Asia. I haven't actually been to Asia, but I am currently obsessing with the country. Been on a few Anime and reading anything about it. 
I brought a smoothie/juice maker! I have been wanting to try out this new health kick everyone has been raving about. So with thanks to the fitness freaks on tumblr and on pinterest for the green smoothie recipes. I have been enjoying creating and experimenting with new ways to make my breakfast seem like fun! I have been feeling more cleanse and more energised.


Rose.